Thursday, August 19, 2010

Bumpy re-entry

Hi dear sisters ...... as I am typing here, I feel like a third person occupying someone else’s body. My eyes are seeing the open blue sky and the rich green foliage here in Toronto while my heart is still lingering in the colorful world and bustling crowds in Tokyo.


It seems like ages since I learned about this distinguished man named Bae Yong Joon, started writing about him at this very same desk, looking out to the same view of swaying trees and neat houses. Five years later, the trees in my front yard are now higher than my house and the leaves are so dense that I do not have to worry about nosy neighbors pressing their noses against the windows to check on me anymore (haha just kidding :) In this faraway Canadian city where life is peaceful and quiet and nothing ever seems to change, no way on earth would I ever dream I had the chance to come this close to the world of Bae Yong Joon in Japan!


Yes, 2 ½ years ago, my dream did came true. I called it a dream because it’s not a pre-planned agenda, but more of a very timely, fateful opportunity. Compared to migrating to Canada during my teens, moving to Japan at this ripe old age of course cannot be considered as a life-altering event. But the people, the culture, the history, the beauty and the love we experienced in Japan have totally cleansed, refreshed and recharged our dormant and tired spirits (hmmm.... sounds like a skincare commercial, huh?), we will never look at things the same way as before!


Miahnae dear sisters for not writing for so long and making you worry. As you can guess already, it was a very bumpy emotional and mental re-entry for us. Not a single day did I not think about Tokyo, my dear Japanese sisters and Yong Joon. I try to suppress my thoughts and sights on anything Japan so I would not miss them so much. It is a losing battle though whenever I read about how much my dear Japanese sisters are missing me also, tears will uncontrollably stream down my face, sob sob :(


This week, I decided to pick up Winter Sonata (for the 20+ times @@) and re-watch Yong Joon at his most brilliant moments. All the warm feelings about unconditional love, truth and purity re-surface from looking at the handsome prince's lovely smile. Will it really do any good for anyone to hide myself in a shell and carry on with my mourning of the time in the past? Or should I be thankful for what I have received already and be strong and positive to face what’s ahead of me. Thank you my dear sisters for your encouragement and staying with me through our BYJ journey :) Now, let's rock n' roll .......


26 comments:

myoce said...

Dearest Jaime,

Welcome back, welcome home....

It's only spatial distance...the heart does not recognize distances...besides, love travels in nanoseconds...or less^^

Now....lets roll !!
Will be anticipating your next posts^^

LOTS of love,
myoce

vegas said...

My Dear Lady Jaime!

It's so wonderful to read your post today. I can only imagine how life has been for you lately after moving back to Toronto and getting settled back into life there. I'm happy to know you are doing well and are getting back into the swing of things. I'm sure the time you spent in Japan will always be a grand time in your life. I'm looking forward to catching up with you once again and keeping in touch via your blog. Please continue to take good care of yourself!!

hugs and aloha!
vegas

jaime said...

Hi my dear myoce,

How are you? I hope everything is fine with you. Yes, you're right. I know our hearts will be tied together regardless of distance, just like our BYJ sisters scattered around the world. Hehe, I promise to try to blog more often now :)

Please take care!
love .... jaime

xiaoyi said...

Dear Jaime,

WELCOME BACK!!!!!!!
Hope you've settled down, and things get back on track!
Really happy to hear from you again.
Do take care, will catch up with you again later.
Loves, xiaoyi

jaime said...

Hi dear lady vegas,

so nice to hear from you! How's everything? Thanks for your understanding. Yes, like most foreigners, it's very hard to leave a wonderful country like Japan. I only wish Tokyo were a few hours flight, I would be going back every other month, sigh!
Please keep in touch!

love ... jaime

chakachan said...

Hello Ms. Jaime!!
Lovely to know that you are doing well and ..slowly adjusting (again) in your native Canada.
It is tough to leave alot of wonderful memories that Japan had given you...you will surely treasure them all...but look..we are all still here, no matter how far from the globe you may be..right?! It only means that BYJ is certainly UNIVERSAL..ha ha ha...you can love him anywhere you may be in the world!!

MMWAHHH!!
Chakachanny...

bb said...

jaime jaime...!

(and i feel so ashamed of myself that i haven't written back to you! soon, soon, okay? you're one of those i don't want to just drop a cursory hello note, if you know what i mean...)

so good to have you back on cyberspace! i heard about your computer trouble, and hope it's all resolved now.

and it's really with mixed feelings that i read this... happy to 'see' you, and yet sad to hear about what's going through your mind. but hey, the better way to live and to deal with life is always to take the 'higher' road of being positive. (hey, at least you had it so good, and had him so close before ^^)

and yea, be strong, be positive.

and we're all still here, waiting for you when you're ready to 'rock and roll' again!

(me thinks it's almost strange that you've decided to start writing now, and i've just decided to 'move' and then wuri yong joon hits us with those new calendar pics!)

Anonymous said...

Hi hi Jaime

So good to have you back! :) I've been checking this space everyday, somehow not so much for what you write about our dearest YJ but this time, it's just to know that I still have this link to you.

Just be thankful you had the opportunity to have a few years in Tokyo and even get so close to our dearest man. Well, life must move on . . . take it as it comes and no matter where we are, our hearts are bound together via our super special man.

Really glad to have you back.

cheers
alcy

Anonymous said...

Hi Jamie,
I am so happy you're back. Really missed your writing.

Be strong and positive.

Remember, the YJ family will always standby you.

Take care and do hope we can meet one day again.

Hugs,
Marilyn

April said...

Welcome back Jaime! I have been a silent follower of your blog and I must admit that I've missed you. Thanks for being back! God bless!

April

jaime said...

Hi hi xiaoyi,

thanks for keeping us up to date on any news relating to BYJ. You are a wonderful source of information. couldn't do it without you. I wish you and your family the best!

love ... jaime

jaime said...

Hi Chakachan,

Thank you for your wonderful words. Yeah, BYJ is universal, we all share the same love for him and each other. I will never forget that. Please take care of yourself!

love ... jaime

jaime said...

Hi Hi princess,

thanks for dropping me some words and please do not worry about writing me a long note. I understand that you are a super busy lady with so many interests, our friendship can withstand these.

Like cloudnine, I enjoy reading what you blog, whether it's BYJ or personal. Reading your thoughts about life, friendship, food, shopping, and BYJ of course, is really like sitting across from you, listening to what you have to say, that's a wonderful way of communication for me. So congratulations on your new blog and I will be a dedicated follower for sure :)

Please take care and I am still hoping to see you in Seoul someday!

love .... jaime

jaime said...

dear alcy,

I am so touched by your kind words. I miss you sisters very much too, I think things are getting back to normal :) Hope you have a nice summer so far, see you here soon :)

love .... jaime

jaime said...

Hi hi marilyn,

nice to hear from you again. I hope everything is fine with you. I still have fond memories of the Tokyo Dome events last year. Hope to see you again too.

Please take care!
love ... jaime

jaime said...

Hi April,

Thanks for writing me a message, I appreciate your thoughts very much. I hope to hear from you soon, please take care!

cheers .... jaime

annacronism said...

Hi, sister Jaime.
At last. I have been keeping my fingers crossed that you would start blogging again. I did not know about your computer troubles, but then, I have had some of my own, so I feel for you about that. I am just so glad you are back, my 'neighbor' and sister. I feared you might get too discouraged to blog anymore. Please, know we are all here for you. If you are feeling down, just reach out and I know some one or more of us will be there with a cyber-hug and word of encouragement. Welcome home, dear. (I can't wait to read your wonderful, heart-felt writing again.)Take care.
Love,
Anna

Marce said...

Hi Jaime,
Is so nice to know you are ok, I'm really happy to read from you. I know that is a hard time having a great distance betwen japan and Canada, But I think it is no matter in the cyberspace cause we are close here. Wellcome dear sister. Take care.
Marce

gosijo said...

Dear Jaime,

Welcome back to Canada and Toronto! I'm so glad you came back to blogging as many sisters love to follow your writing. In fact, during your stay in Japan, you were so considerate in sharing the highlights with us, we all felt blessed and we all felt we were experiencing it for ourselves a little.

So looking forward to getting together again!

gosijo

Anonymous said...

Hi, hi Chinggu!

So happy to read that you are blogging again. Miss all your happy and funny posts. Welcome baccckkkkkk!!!I've been visiting here everyday and felt so worried and now that you're back, I know that your problems are over. Happy to the max to see you here again as well as all your chinggus here!

Take care dearie and hugzx2!

Love, Judy

Anonymous said...

Jaime,

So happy to see you blogging again. Must be hard to transition back to Canada...I know how it feels to travel back and forth between countries. Take your time to adjust...and enjoy your time back in Canada.


- dlee

jaime said...

Hi hi anna (& neighbour),

Thank you for being so understanding. I always have so much joy writing to you dear sisters. I am happy that you enjoy blogging too!

Have a nice day!
love ... jaime

jaime said...

dear Marce,

Thanks for writing to me. Yes, life is very comfortable and familiar in Canada. I miss the excitement in Japan which I could learn something new everyday. Hope you will have a nice week!

love .. jaime

jaime said...

dear jose,

welcome back from your asia trip. the mild weather in TO sure beats the heat in asia, eh? I can't wait to meet with you and ivy soon. I'll write to you about the dates, ok?

Have a nice day!
love .. jaime

jaime said...

hi hi chinggu,

me too, am happy to the max whenever I hear from you. behave ok? I am too far to reach my claws over to you to keep you in control now :) take care dearie!

love & hugs ... jaime

jaime said...

hi dlee,

thanks for dropping by here. I'll listen to your advice and take it easy. there is always a positive way to look at things, thanks!

cheers ... jaime